The Real mE

There are so many things about I want to write, but one thing sure I love to write my blogs with the music in my ears. It makes me think even deeper...

People are different, some show all their emotions in every day life, while others hide them away from others and sometimes themselves. I don't know where I fit. Where would be the right place for me to fit in? What character should I choose to feel more secure? All those questions pope ( I hope I spelled it rigth 8D ) in my head once a while. I try to show what really I am outside in the world, but as you read my blog, there are things that I try just not too mention.
I'm a really hyper person. Once Anna told me that she even thinks that I'm high or somethings. One things that will not ever happen to me. Doing drugs or getting drunk, that grosses me out. I guess because there are just some things that I consider DAME DESU　だめです。I'm not that kind of the person who will do what you ask me to. One thing that I'm confused about myself is my loving and begging part.
As the love part, I fall for people really fast. Once I fell for you I can fall back or block the feelings really fast. It's just I don't want to wait for centuries for you to ask me out.(You doesn't refer to anyone who reads my blog, I wouldn't even know who reads my blog^_^) It's just as nature, a butterfly stays in it's cocoon for a while, but then it grows and grows and finally escapes somewhere far. As the butterfly grows my feelings get sucked in more and more. One moment they just fly away so far that its hard to reach that butterfly again.
As if begging part. I just hate begging people to do what I want them to do. Once I remember I was begging my mom to let me go to Tiff house. At the end when she let me I started crying so much. I couldn't stop myself from crying, at the same time I couldn't understand what is happening to me. Was it just that I was happy? Or is it that I feel miserable when I ask for something so much and then get it? I just really don't like that part of me.

Things that make me happy, is chocolate or something sweet. I remember days when I was little girl. When my mom got home with something sweet I used to hide under the night table and eat it by myself, not sharing with others:D. Of course I changed, but sometimes when I get something tasty I think about how should I eat it myself, but in the end I just share it. Oh my, now I feel like going to Tiff house and eating all her candies 8D.

I'll wrap it up, but I'll add some lyrics of my favourite song - Boys Before Flowers MV: Because I Am Stupid (Korean Version)

I'm happy even to be looking at your back
You still don't know how I feel
In the end you still go past me
In the days when I miss you very much
The days when I suffered pain
"I love you " is buzzing in my mouth
Crying for you a lot yet again

Those are just lyrics that I find sad, in that part of the lyrics I cried a lot, yet again. P.S those lyrics don't refer to me or any one else and they sound much better in Korean :D